Invincible!!!!

Ppl…I’m in Melbourne already…And I have a new blog…Please proceed to www.chiahuanng.blogspot.com.

Just had 2 breakfast with Jem and KD around JB..or rather breakfast at 2 different places. Went around town also..to SETA and danga bay and the place where i had been really familiar with…Sense of sadness and nostalgia crept up…Just can’t help worrying that I’m leaving next saturday.Time flies…and I’m weary and worried…Weary of their frequent cold-wars…Just felt that i’m not prepared for leaving..Not being able to leave home with mum and dad in this state.

I’m tired..tired of being in between..tired and…just tired…

I need energy and I need my oldself  back…

Don scratch head while u saw the title…ya…That’s what i mean…There’s so much philosophy in shopping and it seems shopping for jeans has so many similarities in love. Below is a real scenario…haha…

I was searching for a pair of jeans recently. It all started since almost one month ago. After my final exam, I started searching for a pair of jeans. I found a pair which is so nice in Espirit. nice cutting, nice colour, nice fabric. It seems so suitable for me. but when i see the price tag…………RM 329…-.-lll….How am i suppose to buy this?hmmm…With a feeling of sadness, I walked away with hope that I will surely find my pair of jeans with a more suitable price. Shops and shops i’ve gone…Bought many other things besides my jeans…hee..=p…Finally, one day i went into Padini…and there was a section for ladies’ jeans…eh…they even have name for the jeans and I didn’t know those which are for guys are called "Alex" and those which are for girls are called "Alicia"…!!!eh!!!EH!!!it’s my name..haha…so, I took one to try on…it fitted…nice colour, nice fabric, nice cutting too…and when i took a look at the price tag…RM107…ok wat…..yup…and that’s it…I got my jeans…at the right time, right jeans…=)

So, to think of it…It sounds so much like looking for  ur partner in life….We have to take time, choose, and compare….just to find the right one.haha…likewise, once we get the right pair of jeans, we’ll wear it for a long long time..normally for life time..Cos, the longer u wear it, the more comfortable it is..I’m sure u’ll agree with me right…We’ll wear our jeans until it’s torn little here and there…Likewise, if u’ve got ur suitable partner, the longer u be together, the better u feel…But, if u didnt get the right size, right cutting, or right colour. U just feel like changing it, cos it doesnt make u feel comfortable…sometimes it’s also because the person who wears it have changed…U outgrow ur jeans or the jeans outgrow u…haha…so u either go on diet to fit into the old pair of jeans or u eat more…or u buy a new one…=) So, here’s the tricky part…U don just change a new pair of jeans once u feel that u didnt get the right one, but u give it a chance.. Try and wear it more…If in the end, it’s still not the right pair then we really have to get a new pair…

Hmmm…is there a chance to get the unsuitable one even if u put in lots of effort and time to decide??

I guess yes!!!ooopsss…then how ah?

Oh…just leave it to fate lah…haha….Just like getting the jeans….

2 more weeks before i fly off to melbourne. wanted to write up a long long post about my 2.5 years of life in IMU but i guess there’re too much in my mind which made me difficult to start. Below is just a brief list of things which happened through the years whilei studied in IMU and stayed in B2-10-3…

Things that i missed…

• The first day in school when i introduced myself to others explaining that my name means "happy family"…haha…Ben..I know u’re one of them.

• Orientation when our heads became mixing bowl for seniors to make cake
• Learning Tai Chi for the first time.   
• First dinner with Chow, Hui Lin, YS and a few others in Little Penang.(I think it’s closed down d)
• Outingssssssssss with my previous housemates.
• Being a library furniture during sem 1
• Knowing Mr. Mentakab in library when everybody were still young.haha…
• Knowing Mr. Form 6 from Kota Tinggi through first Behavourial Science interview.
• Joining IMU cup for the first time and first swimming comp ever in my life.haha…fun…jumping into the water before the first swimmer reached because we’re lagging behind…don care ady.
• First and only guitar performance in IMU (helped joanne out to play accompaniment for the choir)..cant remember wat song did we play ady.
• Going to KK for sem 1 electives…got to know more friends through that trip and it was definitely a very enjoyable one…Thanks to yeap for organising all…
• organising WAVES in sem2.
• helping cheems with her campaign. First time witnessing how election in a university is carried out.
• Going to Mentakab and Kuantan and Balok…Balok was really nice.memorable trip…Had a good laugh at jj…(don mind ya)..jj: "wake up!!!!"haha..=p
• Being called to train a martial art in somewhere in IMU…haha…interesting to know more about martial arts but i guess i’m not fated to learn it or rather i hold too strongly to my own principles…but, it was fun.
• Helping out to organise a very big event in IMU…Chinese Singing Competition..managed to see a star too…haha….got his signature…Mr. Chan Kwok Fai.
• Having our "family friends" in JB and brought them around too..went to Kukup,,,Neverending Mahjong sessions and interesting karaoke singing..hee=)(u know who u are)…
• Late night basketballssssssssssss….
• Late night jogging………….
• mamaksssss….(although i went less during sem4 and 5)…due to caution to weight and my poor big eyebags and dark eye circles…
• chat through the night in kuchai lama.
• watching dramasssssssss with my "bedmate"
• being able to "stalk" ppl from our room cos our room faces the entrance into IMU…hee…=p
• cookouts…..
• cooking in our apartment and millions of dining together with fellow housemates…
• having loads of M205-ians in block B2…Sze Chia, Kher Dee, Jessica, Qui Yueh, Lydia, Li Shan, Jason, Chia Qi, Shin Yin…Wow.. really a lot and yeah…not forgetting Siaw who is a frequent "visitor" to B2.
• Running in Commonwealth park.
• Running in Taman Esplanade.
• Running to Carefour and Pasar Malam.
• Eating pan mee in pasar malam.
• sitting in Auditorium (current LT2)…Uwen sitting on my left, Chui Han on my right.Hai lin who just won’t open his mouth…haha..=p..no offense
• laughing at other ppl with chui han and winnie during lectures…oopss…
• going to KKB…planning for the ’side-activities’..bbq,cooking steamboat,dessert,mahjong and cards time…hmmm..oh ya..KKB is a place where we do our rotations We’re SUPPOSED TO LEARN STUFFS IN THE HOSPITAL..hee…
• IMU ball…being so not-us on that day…make-up and dressing up like a princes and princesses.
• Going to Mulu…and got a lot of blue-blacks on my legs.Having a guardian angel (chow) when i was climbing the pinnacles.and having slipped in the night-walk and cried..(ouch-ouch)
• Joining loads of sports during sem4 and  5..Took up volleyball in sem4 and really loved it after that. although was so reluctant to become a setter at that time.
• Going to Penang during sem4.. was an eating trip i guess. eating in between each 2 hours.
• playing basketball…
• playing basketball…
• having friends around me when i’m sad…especially when i sprained my leg…
• mus forever shiok sendiri pattern. lame jokes. and never fail to make me smile. for teaching me volleyball and basketball.
• playing batu seremban altho only for once in lydia’s house.
• pbl sessions in IMU.(cant believe i miss this too)…(^.^)…I got very good comments from PBL mates and fasci in sem5..haha…donno whether is that something to be happy about.
• crazy laughing "sessions" with Ben…somebody to fight with me for low threshold towards tickle…haha…
• watching one of the 7wonders in the lecture hall–how paul can doze off within seconds after the lecture starts.haha…
• Trainings for IMU cup.
• Basketball training under Patrick which actually makes me feel like a pro le…hee..
• Perhentian trip…although small problems did happened…still young wat…haha…
• Cheerleading trainingsssssssssssssssss….until midnight…but, it was worth it all..cos we got gold…Go..Falcons!!
• making birthday cakes and brownies for friends.
• cracking our  heads for birthday surprises….=)
• Got loads of dramas from JJ and watching heaps of them although exams’re just around the corner.ooopss..Thanks..my TV series supplier.
• shopping!!!
• Movie outings with ‘family’…=)
• Swimming training with fellow M205 swimmers and always fighting for better timing with jackie.
• joining MAPCU…haha………good experience…
• Playing fire-crackers with my housemates.
• B2-10-3 housemates….
• IMU "family"
• Our neighbour…Dr.Rajesh and family.
• Joanne for being a dear-blur-friend…=)
• eating mamak
• endless laughters
• stupid things which we did…laughing at ppl who accidentally pressed the buttons in the lift.
• eating secret recipe cakes for at least 10 times in a year
• langkawi trip
• lots of new-found close friends…
• playing the first-ever grand piano in IMU with ivy.
• IMU gym
• IMU dance room
• CSU sisters (Sister Chiang, Sister Joanne, and Sister Teo
• Just walking around IMU
• must-go-hang-out-place-after-exam….heee…=) Redbox/Greenbox…for karaoke singing session.

few of the things which happen through these 2.5 years.still updating…

Honestly, I dislike changes. Changes bring about anxiety. Changes make ppl feel insecure. but, as ppl says changes are inevitable in life and we learn through the various changes in life. Changes make us grow and broaden our mind. Have to open up our hearts, accept changes and grow to be a stronger and better person.

Thankful to god as I have a lot, a lot of friends here. Things won’t be the same without you guys…It has really been a great journey…

I have loads to blog about…But when I’m sitting in front of my computer, my mind is blocked…I have to train my thought output….-.-lll

Just a brief update…

I’m back in JB…Back as in shifted back…no longer staying in B2-10-3, Bukit Jalil…No longer studying in IMU cos I’ve passed my EOS 5!!!=)…Sadly, I miss Bukit Jalil…A lot…The people, the place and the things that happened there since 2.5 years ago…I miss each and every minute i’ve spent there…I miss each and everyone who has cross my life throughout these 2.5 years………..I miss ………………………………………….

I’ve just taken an OPG(Orthopandomography) don’t know whether i’ve spelled it correctly… Have to take out my wisdom teeth these few weeks before i leave for australia…xD…..anticipating to see my swollen face after 1 week….The description by the oral surgeon who is going to take out my teeth about how is it going to be done sends shiver down my spine…cos my "clever" wisdom tooth is growing horizontally…haha…-.-lll

I’m slacking at home with mum keep nagging that i have to prepare my things to australia……Duh……….slacking and reading the Harry Potter Book which I wanted to read before this but cant due to exam preparation….=)

I wanna go to Singapore to meet the others….Arghhh…but, mum insisted that i stay until i finished off at least some of my stuffs…Getting  a pair of glasses… cos I’m…………….am…………….myopic!!!!!!!!(Short-sighted)…………..sob sob……………

I don’t want to leave…!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!……(Chia Huan throwing tantrum)….only in blog….I wonder what would dad say if i say it in front of him……….hee…=p

I miss home very much…Although i’m not those who will call home everyday to talk to my parents and my family members. Although I’m not those who will go home every weekend…Although I get to see my parents quite frequently…But, I know i miss home badly..Now…Wonder what’s happening at home…Wonder what’s dad and mum doing…Wonder what’s the little kids all doing?Weekend=holiday to them…weekend=stay over at grandparent’s(my parents) place…Wonder how dage and dasao doing…Wonder how’s er ge and er sao and little zu hao….Wonder how’s the newly-wed san ge and san sao doing…

Although i’m not the type who is darn hardworking to study all day long…But, I’m sick of studying…tired of trying hard to finish the "never-ending" notes everyday and feeling guilty for dozing off/day-dreaming off and not be able to achieve my target in that day…

Health issues is in 5 days time…Although it’s not that important…But, still i feel scared for feeling so "insufficient" for the exam…Not listening in lecture and now totally blur of what’s printed in the notes…Wonder again How am i going to sit for the exam…

I need to go home….(counting down 5 days until i go back) =)
I wanna watch star dust…
I wanna watch enchanted…

I shall brave through everything…(how to survive in Melbourne like this?)

"Stop thinking so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

35 more days left to EOS 5…Let me tell u how slack a med school student can be…

Friday
Afternoon : Skipped lecture (thought of doing some private study but in the end failed)..Went straight to play volleyball…

Evening : Played volleyball until 8pm =)

Night : Settled some personal issues…Yeah!!It’s settled…=)

Watched Ratatouille and doze off halfway…=)ZzzzZZZZzzzz….

Saturday
Morning : Wake up, get dressed and went straight to One U for a reunion with some of my jie-mei friends..Lunch at "sushi-groove"..Yummy Tempura & Gindara…=p…We talked(take note of the times this word appear)

Afternoon : Catch "bee movie"…quite nice…or rather everything will be nice with nice company…

Evening : went to Secret Recipe to have tea (haha…we definitely know how to enjoy)…had cakes…and talked(^.^)…until Yuan have to leave for her hubby(^.^)ooppss…

Night : Went to The Curve and had dinner in Lan Kuay Fang…Maggie and Sing surprised me with a unexpected be-early-early-early birthday celebration…Thanks gals!!!Yup…I’ll bring the strawberry piggy to Aus…Thanks…

Reached home at 12am and continued with the unfinished Ratatouille and sleep….ZzzzzZZZZZZZZzzzz…..=)

Sunday
Morning : Woke up at 8am to prepare breakfast for a special friend…(^.^)…Hope u like my self invented sandwich and mash potato…..then tried to study….ok…Yipee!!!ONE haemato notes down….Two haemato notes down…..and then……doze off again…

Afternoon : woke up and was shocked by the clock…Act is by the time….I think it’s 4 something or 5??sigh…entire afternoon wasted…

Evening : hungry…decided to have an early dinner…iron clothes…while i watch "ho-chak"…wanted to start my THIRD haemato notes but felt bored so went online until now….9pm….

I think there ends the fifth last weekend before my eos 5…so one more month before i sit for my final exams….Can u imagine?…ok…daddy, mummy…hope u didnt see my post……=p

I just need an answer and a reason of what’s going on…

That’s all…

"There is nothing that can’t be made worse by telling."

    Good news travels fast and bad news travels faster. For some reason, people are more willing to pass along the negatvie things they hear than the positive. In so doing, they lose out on the positive return, for everything they say comes back to them eventually.

    The road to happiness is paved with compliments and praise. Such words bring hope and encouragement to both the speaker and the hearer. The positive things you say can also establish your reputation as a person of integrity, winning you the trust, admiration, and respect of others.

Positive words create a positive life.

From book <<101 simple secrets to keep your hope alive #35>>

It’s so true…The impact of making a mistake or making a wrong decision can be so destructing to self… Especially, after what you have done wrong, forgiveness was given by the others but you still can’t forgive yourself. That’s the worst part… that’s when you know you have landed yourself in a darn s.h.i.t.t.y situation…A word of "sorry" cannot amend the mistake made…But, still sorry…

Yup…amendments do not stop by just saying sorry…Have to solve my own problem…

small small smile…=)

It does not make one feels good when u’ve to guess what’s in
other ppl’s mind..U keep guessing and expecting or hoping what u’re hoping for
will become reality.. U keep guessing and try to prepare urself for the worst
so that u wont be that sad or dejected when the outcome does not follow ur way…

When u actually get to know the truth, U’ll feel
contented and relieved.. Even if the outcome is not wat u hoped for.. Even if the outcome
is just “so-so” loh…But the knowing of the truth actually put

ur

anticipations or anxiousness to an end…And
that’s the feeling that I’m talking about…Because after knowing the truth, U
get to think of plans or rather relieving ways to make ur mind clear of the
“terrible”(heavy word) feeling of keep on guessing what’s the truth…U get to prepare urself emotionally and think of appropriate "counter mechanisms" for it…

I wonder does this apply to most of the ppl. At least for
me, I always yearn to know the truth whether is it good or bad..I just want to
know..Heehee…It’s called curiousity in the nice way and “kepo” in a not that
nice way…=P…

Haha.. just wanna say thanks to u if u had tell me wat I
should know to end my worries and guessings…

Sometimes, if things doesn’t really turn out the way it
should be..I’m sure there’ll be some good points if we look on the other side…

Hmmm…=)